if only u at my seat,,

its already 4 month, but u still in my mind, i just cant stop thinking of u, everytime i hear our songs, i always cry, eisha, i know u r not in this world anymore, but i always remember u n u only as my girlfriend, we have slept together, have a nice breakfast together n walk in a park together , how beautifull is that, u said that u luv me in coolest place on earth, when i remember that moment, it last forever, i know, u always want good thing happen to me, maybe i always had it when im with u, i luv u 4 that n everything that u have said, i always tell my friend, how depress am i when u died, but now, i become alive again, when ur father sent me the last voice record of urs, i heavily cried, but when i thinks back what u have said, it make me stronger, eisha, u just to gud to be with me, im will keep our dream alive.. i always pray 4 u, n i always want u to know that u always be my baby..

mama you are my everything.

hye everybody, everyone has a mother, we called them as mama, mummy, ibu, ummi, and much , more, we have to love them no matter what kind of person she is. she has delivered us to this wonderful world, she also the one that feed us with her two hands, she breastfeed us for two years approximately average, then she taught us a lot of thing, eventhough she sad or not in the good mood, busy or tired, she still making a funny face to us, she always smiles, she always looks happy just to make sure we dont know how she feels. here are a little story about my mother, i was born in september 15th 1987, before that she delivered my three sisters, i dont remember much, but how she told me, delivering me is the most painful than my sisters, i was prematured born, i was born when i just 6 and a half month, my mother told me she need to pee, suddenly, she feel a realy hard contraction , and my heads pop up, in my house toilet, haha, its funny though, then my father rush her to the nearest hospital, at that years the nearest hospital from my house is, hkl, where my sisiters and her husband used to work there now, for 6 hours only my head are comeout, doctor make a decision to pull me out by thongs, because if they hold me to long at there, my mother can die cause of loose bloods, so they pull me out and i still have the scar of thong till now, i have to be in the incubator for two weeks, my mother has been put in a wards because she has lost a lot of bloods, so we are not seen each other for a weeks, i was born in weight of 978gram, not even a kilo, i dont how my weight now i 82 kg, enough of that, my father work cant supports my whole family, so my mother has opened the banana fritters stall, when i just 6 months, she still there until now, even i asked her not to do so, because i get a scholarship for my study, i can support myself but she just say no, without any strong reason, i thinks it because of her customer, in my hometown, everybosy loved my mom banana fritters, i used to help her when im in holiday, back when i was a kid, she always smile whn she comeback from the stall, she always say sorry to me, because she not always there for me, when i grow up, my late auntie and my sisters always take care of me, but i never blamed her for anything, she doing it to support my family, and i needs to understand it, she always said to me to study hards but i play a lot rather thn study, and i got a bad result for my spm, i made her cried, i blame my self because being so stupid, i know i have a good brain, i got 7A in my pmr, but i played alot thats why i got really bad result for spm, then i take my spm again, july paper, repeats spm, lots more, ive been thru that twice, as a result i got 5A, she happy again, when i see her smile, i know my efforts are worth it, i never asked foir a present or anything, enough just a smile from the most lovely person in my life, she always asked me to do good thing in life, she always pray for me, i always be a bad son to her, i always made her cry, mama im sorry for everything, i never meant to hurt you, i loved u but i made a wrong moved, but she always except me back, i was throw out from my house, because my fathers help me, but she always called me, almost everyday for one and half years, she never disowned me as a son, after my dad called me to come back, im home again, she looks so happy, i promised to her i wont do such a stupid thing again, she always said i loved u son, you are the only son that i have in this world, she always make me cry because she love me too much, i promised to her to take cared of her and my dads when they old, i keeps this as passion when im study, and its help me alot, i have responsibilty to them, that what move me forwards, she always pray for me, everyday, i know, because i feel a blessing from god in things that i do, i sured it becaused of her pray, to see me success in life,

mama for this mother day, i ve been so far away from you, im sorry im not beside you today, but what i want to say here, is billions of thank you,to you to raised me up, until now, i really appreciated what you do in my life, and i dont want anything more, even you guys at home always forgot my birthday but its okay, i dont cared much, its enough to know u loved me mama,
mama this my appreciation to you, and i want to say i loved you so much, ask kak lang to open this blog for you, and those that reads this blogs, please loved your mother without them we cant be here, mama i loooooove you so much, yours loved to me is priceless,even the whole money in the world couldnt buy your loved, again i love you mama, i love you more than you loved me.

manchester is coming to malaysia

Kuala Lumpur will be United's first stop on this summer's four-match pre-season tour of Asia.

At a press conference on Tuesday it was confirmed the world champions will play a Malaysia XI at the picturesque Bukit Jalil Stadium on 18 July, kick-off 10:30 BST.

It's eight years since the Reds last visited Malaysia, when 100,000 fans watched a Malaysian All-Stars team lose 6-0 to a strong United line-up. And official tour promoters ProEvents are expecting similarly fervent support this year.

“We are excited to work with the club again, and to bring to Asia one of the most exciting and biggest football clubs in the world," said San Boon Wah, managing director of ProEvents International.

“The club is popular throughout the world and especially so in Asia, where it has a wide fan base. I am sure many football fans, both local and from the region, are thrilled by this opportunity to see the champions in action."

Chief executive David Gill added: “Our relationship with fans in Malaysia is already well established, with local young people having the chance to learn to play the game the Manchester United way with MU Soccer Schools.”

United confirmed the China leg of the tour on Monday and details of the other two games, in Korea and Indonesia, will be revealed on ManUtd.com on Wednesday and Friday.

what we have to do.

it has been written that all of us must die. even we dont know when we will die or how we gonna die, most of us want to be alive as long as they can, but in this new age world lot people die young, there thousand of illness, more accident and suicidal. i have asked my mum about how life when she was a teenagers. she say nothing much to do, live in a village doesn't allowed you to do much, most of us travel to kuala lumpur there i've met your father. so thats are from my mum, my dad said his life is about do what his parents wants, there are no way, you can choosed your own path of life, that why he always asked me to choosed what i want to do in my life. i haved been in three college since 2006, now im in terengganu finishing my last year in occupational safety and health.it was gud thing to do because its offer a lot of job, and a good pay too.what im trying to say here is, you is you. you are the person to decide what to do or not to do in ur life. me, myself has choosed a wrong path before, i take diploma in business, but im very sure there are very less job are left for these course, so i left it and do this safety thing. eventhough i really enjoy cooking, but i take my old man advice to do what is better, now in malaysia, especially in k.l, we have to has at least 3k per month, so we can live easy and realx, if not we have to struggle to live in k.l, but there has a lot of option for us such as m.l.m business, if u r interested, for those not, we just have to study hard to get a better pay in future, so you choosed whats better for you., then we have to commited in anything what we do. be very commited, im sure you will survive in the rat race of the world, we dont want to be a rats for our entire life, at least we have to be a cats rite, so u choosed what you want to be in your life, remember you has a power to change your future, but remember what ever you do please remember who made you live in this world, pray to god everyday, even you are not so religious people, but it will help to build your confidence in ur life, but if you are not success in what you do dont blame god, its not god fault maybe we misdoit somewhere, so remember make a rite decision, thanks for reading this article, there a lot more to read in next issue. bubye, :)

when your love one die.

This is a tribute to my dear ex girlfriend who died this morning.

Doctor has diagnosed her that he is in third stage of brain cancer that impossible to be cured and too risky to go under knife. she never told me about it, and she asked her parent not to do so either, she is one of lovely girl that i have met. no one could replaced her in my life she makes my life wonderful, she is the nicest thing that i ever had, she understand me in all way, she is the reason i left my home, she is everything to me. i met her 4 years ago when i was seventeen, she accept me even im not rich because she come from a wealthy family, the best words that come out from her mouth is i dont care if you are rich or poor you are the best thing i ever had, she has my baby when we are 18 but she had a miscarried because she too weak to pregnant and the baby died, but at that time even she doesnt know she had a cancer, now i asking my self how cruel am i not be beside her when she blow the last breath, she call me last two days and ask me how am i doing, she never told me a hint about her sickness, she said if only i can spent more time with you, if we are not breaking up, the reason i breaking up with her is she had sex with another man at aussie , she study there, i dont understand why she doing it but she feeel really guilty about it, but i cant hold it, i asked for a break up, since then i never had areal true love, she finish her study there and try to find me back but i just say no, i said better we be a very good friend, but deep in my heart i love her so much, so she agreed to be friend, i mean very good friend, we always talk in night, just to know how we been doing, but last two days she called me with a very sad voice, i asled her why, she said she has a fight with her parent so i just think that is the reason, why she so in bloom, but this afternoon her dad called me while im in a class, and told me that she died, while she in a car, just in front of her house, when she ready to go to work, her dad had a chance to talk with her for the last time, she said to him to tell me how sorry she was because make her illness as secret between us, and tell me that she really love me, and she died . i just loose a grip when her dad told me this, for those who read this blog, im sorry , i write this with thousand of tears drop from my eyes, i just loved her so much, she is everything to me, and now she gone, and i found myself really hard to go on now, but dead is something that will happen to evrybody , i haved to accept it, eventhought its really hurt me, thanks for reading for those muslim reader please recite al fatihah to her nurul fareisha bt. nasarudin who died this morning, caused of brain cancer. thanks again and i will pray for you eisha. i will.