This is a tribute to my dear ex girlfriend who died this morning.
Doctor has diagnosed her that he is in third stage of brain cancer that impossible to be cured and too risky to go under knife. she never told me about it, and she asked her parent not to do so either, she is one of lovely girl that i have met. no one could replaced her in my life she makes my life wonderful, she is the nicest thing that i ever had, she understand me in all way, she is the reason i left my home, she is everything to me. i met her 4 years ago when i was seventeen, she accept me even im not rich because she come from a wealthy family, the best words that come out from her mouth is i dont care if you are rich or poor you are the best thing i ever had, she has my baby when we are 18 but she had a miscarried because she too weak to pregnant and the baby died, but at that time even she doesnt know she had a cancer, now i asking my self how cruel am i not be beside her when she blow the last breath, she call me last two days and ask me how am i doing, she never told me a hint about her sickness, she said if only i can spent more time with you, if we are not breaking up, the reason i breaking up with her is she had sex with another man at aussie , she study there, i dont understand why she doing it but she feeel really guilty about it, but i cant hold it, i asked for a break up, since then i never had areal true love, she finish her study there and try to find me back but i just say no, i said better we be a very good friend, but deep in my heart i love her so much, so she agreed to be friend, i mean very good friend, we always talk in night, just to know how we been doing, but last two days she called me with a very sad voice, i asled her why, she said she has a fight with her parent so i just think that is the reason, why she so in bloom, but this afternoon her dad called me while im in a class, and told me that she died, while she in a car, just in front of her house, when she ready to go to work, her dad had a chance to talk with her for the last time, she said to him to tell me how sorry she was because make her illness as secret between us, and tell me that she really love me, and she died . i just loose a grip when her dad told me this, for those who read this blog, im sorry , i write this with thousand of tears drop from my eyes, i just loved her so much, she is everything to me, and now she gone, and i found myself really hard to go on now, but dead is something that will happen to evrybody , i haved to accept it, eventhought its really hurt me, thanks for reading for those muslim reader please recite al fatihah to her nurul fareisha bt. nasarudin who died this morning, caused of brain cancer. thanks again and i will pray for you eisha. i will.
Doctor has diagnosed her that he is in third stage of brain cancer that impossible to be cured and too risky to go under knife. she never told me about it, and she asked her parent not to do so either, she is one of lovely girl that i have met. no one could replaced her in my life she makes my life wonderful, she is the nicest thing that i ever had, she understand me in all way, she is the reason i left my home, she is everything to me. i met her 4 years ago when i was seventeen, she accept me even im not rich because she come from a wealthy family, the best words that come out from her mouth is i dont care if you are rich or poor you are the best thing i ever had, she has my baby when we are 18 but she had a miscarried because she too weak to pregnant and the baby died, but at that time even she doesnt know she had a cancer, now i asking my self how cruel am i not be beside her when she blow the last breath, she call me last two days and ask me how am i doing, she never told me a hint about her sickness, she said if only i can spent more time with you, if we are not breaking up, the reason i breaking up with her is she had sex with another man at aussie , she study there, i dont understand why she doing it but she feeel really guilty about it, but i cant hold it, i asked for a break up, since then i never had areal true love, she finish her study there and try to find me back but i just say no, i said better we be a very good friend, but deep in my heart i love her so much, so she agreed to be friend, i mean very good friend, we always talk in night, just to know how we been doing, but last two days she called me with a very sad voice, i asled her why, she said she has a fight with her parent so i just think that is the reason, why she so in bloom, but this afternoon her dad called me while im in a class, and told me that she died, while she in a car, just in front of her house, when she ready to go to work, her dad had a chance to talk with her for the last time, she said to him to tell me how sorry she was because make her illness as secret between us, and tell me that she really love me, and she died . i just loose a grip when her dad told me this, for those who read this blog, im sorry , i write this with thousand of tears drop from my eyes, i just loved her so much, she is everything to me, and now she gone, and i found myself really hard to go on now, but dead is something that will happen to evrybody , i haved to accept it, eventhought its really hurt me, thanks for reading for those muslim reader please recite al fatihah to her nurul fareisha bt. nasarudin who died this morning, caused of brain cancer. thanks again and i will pray for you eisha. i will.
sabar lah sopi,
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