6 years and counting.....

its has been six years, ive never write anything, because of social media network channel or what i dont know, yeah but 6 years past.

exactly 6 years 3 month 15 days ago, ive lost the love of my life, its been hectic since then, as a secretive person it is hard to tell to others what i really feel, i  always feel insecure to tell things that too personal to me.

back to the love of my life, yeah nurul fareisha bt, nasaruddin. thats her name, love of my life, I almost dream about her almost every nights. some of my friends ive never move on but yes. i try to move on so many times but never works. Its sounds crazy but I've made a promise that i will never fall in love in 10 years. So i guess i had few more years to go.

I have choose many ways to forget her, I also has dating a few girls but it doesn't workout well, maybe the other girls was not even near her level to me... but maybe she is my 1st true love. 

2 years ago im at the top of the world making 5 figures a month, enjoying the moment, party hard. my definition of living at that time is work hard play harder. I still remember me and my best buddy spent 10k in one night just for a sake of having fun. wonderful years. on top of that i still making a lot of money from my side businesses. loaded with money, drive nice cars, a luxury condo for a crib, i cant ask more than that.

but everything come with the price, so call karma thing.. now im jobless, making money from my part time job, lost my condo, had to sell my ride. my business go down the drained, been cheated by my business partner, lost my saving to cover a debt, a fined, there's too much thing happen in 1 year that put me down at my lowest. now i lived with debt around my legs, went for job interview but nature of my field is way too tight to hire a person like me, mostly said we're sorry to say but u r way too qualified for the position and we can't pay u as much as u ask, even when i try to bargain still not hired.

Allah has all the plan, believe in Allah yes u gonna succeed...

keep on praying, he will listen, repent, and pray and repeat.....